DEPENDENCE

I know I’m nothing
I know I’m aimless
I know I’m lost in direction
And I know you know I depend on you

I admit, I confess
I want you, I need you
And you know I know you’re dependable

But, if only you know it gets me more stunted
If only you feel it’s making me worthless
And if only you realize it deeply tortures me

I could hear the words you’ve always whispered
‘Follow your heart’, you said
I would already have tried it if only I was convinced enough
‘It’s ambiguous’, I said.

I’m dependent, you’re dependable.
Thank you, sorry, and I know you know we both know.


Rantepao, 30 June 2010